only real when shared

When Christopher McCandless was finally freed from society, he wrote these words: "Happiness only real when shared". And now I'm here, repeating that message. Not because I'm sure it's true - I am not even sure if it is - but because I experienced it. This project started as an album about Happiness. But when I looked to all the songs on this album, I saw they were almost all about finding happiness in my loved ones. Maybe it is caused by those few years we had less access to our loved ones. But maybe its just the truth. You decide.

1. Singing on the Street

Walked out the door
Into the woods
No one around
It felt real good
Plugged my jacky in
Put my headphones on
And I pressed play

I had put a groovy playlist on
Starting with Jasons Funky song
I smiled from ear to ear

I was singing along
Singing to my favorite song
Louder every note
Wider opening my throat
I knew I was on my own
Well, I though I was alone
But I wasn't on my own
I didn't see the gardener

I was caught singing in the woods
Singing with the volume on
Thinking I was all alone
I was caught singing in the woods
But singing isn't wrong
So I sang like
[scatvocals]

* * *

Another day I went for grocaries
So I walked through Rotterdam
Knowing there are a lot of men
And also woman by the way but I chose men for a better rhyme
And this song is not about gender, I just heard a nice song
and I wanted to sing along

In front of me was nobody
And I looked over my shoulder
I looked across the road
There was no human being close
And I knew the best part was coming
Breathed in and I was running
But I didn't notice
The man who stood in the dooropening

I was caught singing on the streets
Singing with the volume on
Thinking I was all alone
I was caught singing on the streets
But singing isn't wrong
So I sang like
[scatvocals]

* * *

I was cooking in the kitchen
Dreaming 'bout my future, and all that it could be
Last week I was still touring
And today the daily talkshow-guest was me

I asked a question to myself
And I answered myself
I laughed with myself
A conversation with myself
Then it was time for a song
All the stagelights swiched on
I sang loudly and strong
Then I heard my roommate coming home

I was caught singing in my home
Singing with the volume on
Thinking I was all alone
I was caught singing in my home
But singing isn't wrong
So I sang
Why aren't we all singing on the streets
You don't have to be ashamed
When you put a smile on someones face
So, you could start singing on the streets
So, put your music on
And sing along to your favorite song
[scatvocals]

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

2. I Always Thought

He was going to wherever
Walking past me
With his fancy shoes and perfect fit
Strollin' on the street
I got impressed but also nervous
Would he accept me
He was going to wherever
Walking past me

I always thought I, I had to give you a serious frown
And if you'd see it, you wouldn't let me down
But when I'm frowning, you can turn that frown back to me
So now I'm smiling, 'cause it's a smile I'd like to see

* * *

I gave him my attention
I looked him in the eye
But he was on his phone
Of a remarkable size
I thought it was some kind of kind action
But it was a kind disguise
'Cause I wanted his attention
To look me in the eye

I always thought I, I had to give you a serious frown
And if you'd see it, you wouldn't let me down
But when I'm frowning, you can turn that frown back to me
So now I'm smiling, 'cause it's a smile I'd like to see
[scatvocals]

* * *

I always thought I, I had to give you a serious frown
And if you'd see it, you wouldn't let me down
But when I'm frowning, you can turn that frown back to me
So now I'm smiling, 'cause it's a smile I'd like to see

* * *

No I won't hide my face

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Drums by Jeroen van Riel
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

3. Mad Man

Don't kick your ball in his garden
You might get a flat one back
Don't ever beg for his pardon
Just dress yourself in black

Never walk too close to his window
You're never welcome on his mat
Never park your car at his front door
And never start a little chit chat

'Cause it's the mad man in the hood
And he's got a grumpy mood
While he's got a nice house and plenty of food
He is still the mad man in the hood

* * *

Never let your cat play in his backyard
'Cause his garden hose will squirt him down
And always keep an eye on your unleashed dog
'Cause they are quite easy to drown

You could better live your live inconspicuous
Not making any sound after eight
'Cause when that man knocks on your front door
I promise you, you will be afraid

'Cause it's the mad man in the hood
And he's got a grumpy mood
While he's got a nice house and plenty of food
He is still the mad man in your hood

'Cause it's the mad man in your hood
And he's got a grumpy mood
While he's got a nice house and plenty of food
He is still the mad man in your hood

And that mad man is you

* * *

Well, maybe you didn't expect that little turn
'Cause every thing I said sounded like a big burn
But I ain't joking, this is all true
'Cause next to your Jimmy there's a mad man in you

But you don't have to worry
Don't lift up your voice
You'll always be able to make your own choice
You can shift the mood up or bring it on down
You can let that Jimmy hop

Or keep that mad man around

And he's got a grumpy mood
While he's got a nice house and plenty of food
He is still the mad man in your hood
There is a mad man in your hood
And he's changing your mood
You are not behaving as you would
So bring up your Jimmy
Remove the mad man from your
So bring up your Jimmy
Remove the mad man from your
So bring up your Jimmy
Remove the mad man from your hood

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Mixed and mastered by Thom Buitelaar

4. From When It All Made Sense

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Credits

Music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

5. Mind Is a Mess

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Credits

Music by Daan Verkerk
Snare drum by Jeroen van Riel
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

6. Individual (feat. Sanne van Doorn)

Winning, winning always focused on winning
Winning in my reputation. Wanna hear that I’m 10 out of 10
Winning, winning always focused on winning
Winning everything to live like a famous person, every now and then
Earning, earning always focused on earning
Although money isn't that important to me, other things fill the empty space
Winning, winning, I’m really focused on winning
Winning to be dying as a better person than I was born

Winning as an individual, winning as an individual
Winning as an individual, winning as an individual

Winning, winning always focused on winning
I would like to make the world a better place, as long as I don't go into reverse
Winning, winning always focused on winning
Willing to be losing some as long as it is better in the long run
Earning, earning always focused on earning
I don't care about all of my profit ratings, only care about a big increase
Winning, winning always focused on winning
You might think I am a better person, but I also have the greediness disease

Mostly I think I want to do something good for the world
But when I am looking back, I only care ‘bout

Winning as an individual, winning as an individual, winning as an individual
Only 'bout winning as an individual, winning as an individual
Winning as an individual, winning as an individual, winning as an individual
It's about winning as an individual, winning as an individual

* * *

[Sanne van Doorn]
Winning, winning always focused on winning
I know three of the seven habits, now I am prioritizing all my deeds
Winning, winning always focused on winning
always checking my agenda if it fits my schedule and it fits my needs
Earning, earning always focused on earning
When I do something wrong I’ll fix it with a method that makes sure it’s not my fault
Winning, winning always focused on winning
I’m working hard to be a better person but it’s implemented in my soul

Mostly I think I want to do something good for the world
But when I am looking back, I only care ‘bout

Winning as an individual, winning as an individual, winning as an individual
Only 'bout winning as an individual, winning as an individual
I only care 'bout winning as an individual, winning as an individual, winning as an individual
Only 'bout winning as an individual, winning as an individual

Winning as an individual, winning as an individual
Yeah
Winning as an individual, winning as an individual
Winning as an individual yeah
Winning as an individual yeah

* * *

My ego can be a prison to me
Cause only when I’m with others I’m feeling free
I could try to make a change
Although for now, my heart might stay the same

But I'll try
But I'll try not to care about
But I'll try not to care about
Not to care about winning

* * *

I’ll try to care a little more
Won’t think ‘bout my social score
My arrogance, I will ignore

Forgetting my own plans and needs
Focus on your pain and griefs
Think ‘bout you, erasing me

I’ll think ‘bout what is best for you
I’ll dream a little dream for you
I’ll suggest some plans, just for you

I’ll stop talking now, be quiet now,
I’ll finally listen now,
You may talk or be quiet now
It’s up to you

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Featuring Sanne van Doorn
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

7. House on a Hill

It was the first time I saw it
Though I’ve been walking here for years
Now I was looking into the distance
And saw a house on a hill

The house was plastered and painted
Surrounded by grass
But I didn’t see anyone inside
So I started dreaming ‘bout who’s house it was

He might be a lawyer
He might be a farmer
He might be a doctor working 12-hour shifts
He might be a soldier
Or a factory worker
The only thing I know is that he's living in that house on the hill

* * *

The second time I saw it
A guy was mowing the hill
He looked at me, I gave him my smile
And I asked about his day

He told me some stories
About a ship he was working on
He turned out to be a sailor
So all my guesses were wrong
Still guessing I walked away

He might be older
He might be younger
He might be living his most desired life
He might be complaining
Or appreciating
The only thing I know is that a sailor owns that house on the hill

* * *

The third time I saw it
His head was hanging down
But I couldn’t see if there was something in his hands or on the ground

He might be reading some papers
He might be checking his phone
And he also might have a bad day
He might be feeling all alone

In that house on the hill
I don’t know the inside
Of that house on the hill
Could you show what’s inside

It might be cleaned up
But it also might be messy
I’d love to see what’s inside the house on the hill
You might feel ashamed
You might feel embarrassed
But you may know I won’t be judging your house on the hill

It might be flaked
It might be well-painted
I’d love to see what’s inside the house on the hill
You might feel ashamed
You might feel embarrassed
But you may know I won’t be judging your house on the hill

Would you show me what’s inside
your house on the hill
Will you show me what’s inside?

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

8. And a Time to Dance

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Credits

Music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

9. Nightfall

Evening
Sunset
Work is done
Time left
Twighlight
Moonrise
Dinner done
Time flies

And I feel things are pulling
Things are begging to be done
And I've made them important
But the essence is gone

Deadline
Lifegoals
The bar's set high
Idols
Tired
Useless
Waist of time
Unblessed

And I feel somethings pulling
Something's saying: enough
But I made it unimportant
'My nights weren't rough'

When the evening falls
It's all worth nothing anymore
When the evening falls
The urgency is gone
When the evening falls
We'll all find rest
When the evening falls
We'll see what's best

* * *

Power off
Switched mind
Agenda closed
Free time
Meeting
Receiving
Socializing
Just being

If I wanted to go walking
I could choose to stay or go
If I want to watch a movie
I could choose: Shrek or Hulk

When the evening falls
It's all worth nothing anymore
When the evening falls
The urgency is gone
When the evening falls
We'll all find rest
When the evening falls
We'll see what's best
When the evening falls
We see what's best

* * *

When the night falls on the city
When the night falls

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

10. Home

I tend to make every hour useful
To get the most out of this life
But when I need some rest
It’s hard to relax
‘Cause my vision is commercially

But today I’m traveling home
And I know I won’t be alone
Cause today we’re traveling home
Today we won’t think ‘bout the win

This year on my own wasn’t good for me
Although I liked the part of being free
But I need people surrounding me
Cause they help me see
It’s not about ‘to do', but about ‘to be’

And today I’m traveling home
And I know I won’t be alone
Cause today we’re traveling home
Today we won’t think ‘bout the win

* * *

Bound by our blood
Close to our hearts
Sisters and brothers
Father and mother
Love unconditional
Irreplaceable
What would I do
Without you

* * *

When the morning sun is shining through my curtains
I wake up, my head loaded with plans
I go downstairs and eat some food
And get out of my sleeping mood
And then I’d try to make it a useful day
But not today

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

11. My Imaginary Band

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Credits

Music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

12. For You

Do you want to be a millionaire
But have no friends
Do you want to build your imperium
And let family end

When everything's falling apart
When everything's falling apart
They will carry your heart

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

For Us

Sometimes we were laughing
Sometimes we did cry
Sometimes we were healing
Sometimes we died inside
Sometimes we weren't talking
Sometimes I talked too much
But all of these minutes are so close to my heart
But all of these minutes are so close to my heart

I miss you when you're gone
Even if you didn't go away
But now you aren't gone
Cause even though you went away I know your heart did stay

* * *

I wish you the best
But the worst is happening
When I was worried
And thought you would be gone
I thought it would be better
But I'm happy it was not
I hope that God will give you a better life than you've had
I hope that God will give you a better life than you've had

I miss you when you're gone
Even if you didn't go away
But now you aren't gone
Cause even though you went away I know your heart did stay
I know your heart did stay

* * *

Although it doesn't always feel that way

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

14. The Perfect

We are looking for the perfect
We are looking for the good
We are looking for eternal love
And I'm finding it in you
I'm finding it in you

We are looking for the perfect
We are looking for the good
We are looking for eternal love
And I'm finding it in you

A sparkle in the darkness
Not everybody sees
But everybody tries
And everybody agrees

That somewhere in the darkness
A hidden light must be
Some goodness in this world
Some place we might once be

We are looking for the perfect
We are looking for the good
We are looking for eternal love
And I'm finding it in you
And I'm finding it in you
Yes I'm finding it in you

Credits

Lyrics and music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar

15. One Final Chord

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Credits

Music by Daan Verkerk
Mastered by Thom Buitelaar